i am still trying to get adjusted to returning home from the majestic, awe inspiring reality that is the Colorado Rockies. No, not the baseball team; the actual mountains.
The sheer size of them is overwhelming.
And something brilliant happened as i stood atop Pikes Peak, the wind chill at 35 degrees Fahrenheit and the clouds billowing below me. i was struck again with how large life can _ and really, should _ be.
i felt as though i were on top of the world. In a way i was.
i had been touched similarly 20 years ago while visiting the Rocky Mountain National Park. But this recent experience had a larger, more powerful effect. i was experiencing the majesty as one set free from addiction and able to appreciate in a deeper way, true beauty.
One of the things that happens with repeated indulgence of fleshly lusts is a robbery of sorts. The robbery is simply this: by filling your eyes with images of twisted ideas of beauty, you lose the ability to appreciate the genuine article. This definitely happened to me over the years i was in my addiction to porn.
Such thievery should come as no surprise. Jesus said:
The thief comes only to steal, kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. [John 10:10]
There is a tremendous fullness i felt looking out from 14,110 feet above sea level, short of breath as i was. i felt it as well at other times hiking and simply looking at the broad expanse of the natural wonders all around Colorado Springs.
It was good to be caught up in the midst of wonder at the grandeur of it all. i need to be continually reminded how large reality is; it serves as a picture to keep before my eyes that the Story i live in is epic.